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aoi_chan3
13 June 2013 @ 04:49 pm
In the morning I went to school and went to the gym to do my first math exam. I was so shocked at how easy part a and b were. I would say I did pretty good. Right now, I am so tense. My upper back...my neck, hurts. I think I'll take a shower and drink some tea to relax myself. In total, I think I got at most 80% and not lower than 60%. Therefore, I'm saying that I passed. I freaking passed my Final exam ( at least the first one. thank god.) I PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSED.OKAY IT'S NOT OFFICIAL YET. BUT I KNOW I PASSED. I did 2 mock exams and I know how the quebec education system marks the exams. fknelarnfglonaegolunealgneoua I AM SO RELIEVED. :D but I am still tired as heck. I don't want to do anything right now besides sleep or eat. eat. that would be great.
I also did my french exam....I don't really care too much about french. A lot of people pass. And I've been getting really good marks in french. I'm talking 90% an 80%. So I'm good. YUSSSSSSSSSSSOMG

k
well
i guess
it's
back
to studying
after......I have to pass the one tomorrow
 
 
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
 
 
aoi_chan3
12 June 2013 @ 12:51 am
I was never really the type to study. I do regret it now. During my advanced science exam I held my watch and literally wished I would go back to the start of the year. I kept on repeating the same thing on my head. "go back go back....". About 2 minutes later I realized it wasn't possible. I don't have supernatural powers and the time traveling machine hasn't been invented as of yet, unfortunately.
My results?
I probably failed that. The pass here is at least 60% and they've gotten me crazy with their advanced this and advanced that. I don't like the teachers too much, and the environment is completely new. I don't want to blame anything but myself for what has happened though. It;s my own fault and the excuse that i am not used to it won't cut it. I should've studied harder.

The thing is...all along I thought today I was going to write my regular science exam. I only recently (yesterday at the beginning of the french exam) found out that the science advanced, or as to they refer it, bridging exam was today and that the regular science exam was next week, on Tuesday.

Don't get me wrong here,(like my dad), I wasn't a quiet gal about the exam dates. I looked at my schedule and it indicated the dates, but both of them said science. As I looked at my agenda to see the codes, I presume I mixed the codes of the classes wrong. I swear, I want them to change their naming techniques. Just put bridging damn it. not science. geez.


My dad gave me a whole speech on how unable he was of understanding my decision. I didn't feel the need to back myself up, because truthfully I was to blame. But he doesn't have to get so freaking upset about it. ****. I'm the one who's more upset than you are. He kept on mentioning his disappointment, when I just clearly wanted to forget about it. I knew why I made that mistake. He told me to over think why I did what I did. I know why. But he wanted me to tell him, he wanted to "understand" me. F that. He just wanted to shake his head at me some more , I beat. That's what he always does. He always mentions that he hates stupid people. He's stupid himself, yes, I've told him that. Everyone is fucking stupid, including me. Everyone.

I just wanted to forget about it. I just want to stop being all sad and gloomy. The only time he stops is when I cry. Wait no that's not true at all. He doesn't stop just there. He asks why I'm crying, why I get so upset, why he's not able to understand me. The fucking answer is: You can't understand a person's feelings so easy, dad. You almost never can.

So, when I shouted and let out a tear. He kept on talking, saying that he only wants to understand. I know it sounds mean, but the way he says it and the things he will end up saying or shaking his head, they're all annoying and they stab me psychologically.

I love my dad, don't get me wrong. But Dads are not perfect. Everyone is not. This dad though, lacks in a lot of things. I hope the reason why I am stuck with this dad, whom I love very much (no lie), is to learn from his mistakes and let him know his errors. I am, after all the only girl in the family apart from mom.

Anyway, the reason why I haven't tried so hard, ever in school is that I hardly see a real point in the way people live these days. Everyone wants money and power and status. They want the big house, the nice car ( slowly killing our ozone layer), the nice hairdos, everything media makes them think they need. It's painful to live in this world. What keeps me going are the positive things, like a good laugh with my friends, my dog, my mom, my whole family. But when I remember the reason why we need to work and money for, I get all annoyed at the world. I'm not saying I get angry enough to want to kill myself. Clearly, I should be doing something for the people on earth instead of throwing away my life. The world will end some day. ( wow this escalated quickly.....very quickly o.o) SO instead of roaming like the other pepz in the world, I want to help others who suffer. I'm losing interest in school. Sometimes it's interesting, but when I want to learn the teachers make it so boring. It sucks. School sucks. Education isn't bad, but School sucks.

Tomorrow, I won't have an exam. Math and french(writing) are next on Thursday, and then math again on Friday. The main reason why i want to try hard this time is because I don't want any negativity in the house again. I don't want to be the fire starter. It's a pain.
Today was stressing. Tomorrow will be better.
 
 
Current Mood: draineddrained
 
 
aoi_chan3
10 June 2013 @ 11:36 am
Hello! I recently came across this drama, and I am so intrigued by the story. I really love it. I think the director, the writer and who ever is in charge of creating this masterpiece is a genius. I just finished watching the first 2 episodes and I am waiting for the third episode to be available for dramafever members. I am seriously in love with this drama. I can not point out flaws in it so far. I just love it. To be honest, I can really relate with the main character, Jang Hye Sung. The career of a public defender really interests me. I love this girl so much but, sometimes I get annoyed at her present day self. I enjoyed the past Hye Sung better :S I loved her "truthful" attitude when she was a high school student.

Anyway, I will be doing a full review of the drama later on. Right now I have to get ready to go to my French exam. -___- yes it's that time of the year again! wooohhooooo...hahaha.

 
 
Current Mood: contentcontent
 
 
aoi_chan3
안녕하세요 제 이름은 산드라입니다
''Laugh as long as you breathe and love as long as you live'' -Hello, The name's Sandra. I'm a girl who loves all kinds of people with different cultures.( whatever it is, Japanese,  Korean, Spanish , Indian , Somalian etc......O.O)
i AM A BIG KPOP FAN AND
A PROUD BLACKJACK FOR LIFE.

1.Treat me nice and I'll treat you nice as well. Be my friend and I'll gladly be yours. 2.If you know me well enough, you should know that: My favorite color is blue. I play the Violin, the Flute and forgot how to play the recorder since i learned it in grade 5 O.O Love Asians xD I love drawing I also spend some time listening to music and while I'm at it I dance.*maybe something people don't know about me* I'm a Latina girl, which means I'm Spanish (me: OHHH YEAH ~! .....o.o....xD)
I LOVE KOREAN AND JAPANESE MUSIC! DRAMAS AND ANIMES AND MANGAS..ETC.....!!!!! I want to learn korean. 3.there are lots of facts about me that I don't even realize. 
Good or bad. I'll always be me. 
Come figure me out.....if you wanna. (:    
''In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.''
i guess this song would describe me:

layout by saranghaeng
( I messed up with it ~)
The header pic is by MisSGuaRD from deviantart! thank you ^^

 
 
Current Location: desk
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: regalame un beso - Fanny Lu
 
 
aoi_chan3
02 May 2012 @ 06:59 pm
Selena is my true hispanic idol.
THIS POST IS MEANT TO BE FOR HER
She is who I adore at heart. she is my guardian angel and I detest the act that she had to die because of some jealous prick killing her.''accidently'', in her opinion.
Ilove selena and she will forever be in my heart. I aspire to be like her. Her gorgeous smile is infnite. I can't get enough of her gorgeous being. She is talented and her husband is gorgeous aswell. She died in march 31st 1995. 
and I miss her so much.



 
 
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: bidi bidi bom bom Selena
 
 
 
aoi_chan3
20 March 2012 @ 08:54 pm


although 2ne1 might have nothing to do with high school for some people, 2ne1 has always so far...been a part hs .
and their cover of this song makes me sooo happy I want to dance.=|''Feels so good inside~'' 
and the whole ''can't you feel my heart beat~?'' it reminds me of shoujo mangas...I read a LOT of them and sometimes really get carried away when suddenly someone stares at me for too long, but then I use the excuse of '' I must have something on my face'' so that I don't end up with high hopes and get crushed later on or get a crush in the end.....
I mean I think High School, from my perspective, gave me a lot of delusions. I often thought I would encounter a lot of lovey-dovey couples. and I only ended up seeing a few. I personally am not really interested in that sort of relationship yet....
High school so far is like an adventure.....?
I don't know what else to sayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
I'm just an otaku with a good blackjack spirit. 
But I will continue this entry later...
 
 
aoi_chan3
17 March 2012 @ 04:42 pm


I recently finished watching an anime called Kimi to boku ( you and me) and it has reminded how beautiful the japanese language.
it's so relaxing to watch this anime series because it's all about youth and school life and growing up.......boys. >//<
AND NO IT IS NOT YAOI OR SHOUNEN AI.
I'm trying to cut out of those things, but I have got to say you and me is sooooo much cuter than any other shounen ai anime.
I am in love with it.
I've also tried to learn the lyrics to the ending theme.
I've got the first part memorized so far
boku wa yowa mishude......:D
and the rest I wrote down.....but I need practice.
I honestly love this anime it's my new favourite. and The art work is sooooooo cute and simple, I love this anime art the best. It really matches with the ED if you watch the anime, there's a slideshow of art work. it's sooooo cute. 
I want to read the manga and rewatch thewhole series....I can't wait till season 2.
My favourite twin is...yuki >///< he's soooo cool. and I just looooooooooove the blond guy! (straw hat)

 
 
Current Mood: relaxedrelaxed
Current Music: kimi to boku ed
 
 
aoi_chan3
17 March 2012 @ 04:35 pm
it doesn't feel like I'm 15. But I hope I grow some more............I really don't know what to wish for my 15th year in youth. 
I guess I really don't want the world to end this year like the myths say it will. 
I wanna meet some more amazing people and have a year full of fun. Even though I may be surrounded by some people that don't really talk to each other to much, i hope I can be the one who brings up conversations and things. I want to put smiles on people's faces this year and help them throughout their life.

I'll try my best to try giving my best  at whatever it is I am ....doing.O_O



But I don't feel like saying goodbye to 14 year old me.
Although I may already have done so.
I'm in love with this song  by BIG BANG. I'm not sure I like fantastic baby too much.

 
 
Current Music: Blue by Big Bang
 
 
aoi_chan3
29 February 2012 @ 04:51 pm
high school gets on my nerves...I just want to be free from projects and homework. It's also scary because a lot of people change through high school, I've recently heard of a girl getting pregnant....-_- hope she's fine. But I guess we grow up in both bad and good ways through high school. It's such a pain, though. I barely have any free time for myself, I always have to rush to the Art room nowadays since I need to finish this project that I sould"ve gotten done yesterday. Everyone of my friends is like " UR SOO SLOW!" 
just shut up, I know I 'm really slow but When I rush it gets all messed up and I don't like messy. I can"t help it , I guess I'm like a SLOTH....
TROLOOLLLLOLOOLOLOLOLOLOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL




ANYWAYSSSSSS....i also get really distracted really really fast.........oh me.
I hope I grow into a cheetah

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG SOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
NOSEBLEEDDDD jk.,...im not that weird....





great homework. 
 
 
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: CNBLUE-Intuition
 
 
aoi_chan3
23 February 2012 @ 09:14 pm

i feel like crying zico, mybaby, looked soooooooooo sad :( I want to cry soo badly but I feel that if I do, i"ll be showing disencourgement. I rather encourage them then to show my pity. I love them and forever will.
 
 
Current Mood: sadsad